Dropping This Truth bomb: Just because your drug dealer takes medical insurance, doesn’t mean they are incentivized to stop writing the scripts for your re-up each month. Sobriety is 100% a choice that always has to come from you. Only you know when it time. This past July marked my 5 year sobriety anniversary from alcohol. I put the drink down and never looked back. HOWEVER, I’ve still been lying to myself or maybe it’s just better to frame it as “I wasn’t ready” or “if the dr keeps giving them to me then I’m not cheating myself”. If you’re an addict (or love one), then you know these internal conversations. After settling into my beautiful home, my body knew it was safe & it’s now time. Time to shed the final darkness that’s no longer serving me. I’m no longer in survival mode & the only way to thrive is to let go of EVERYTHING (people, behaviors, environments, etc) to rise from the ashes as the phoenix I know I am. If I’ve learned anything over this past year, it’s how incredibly capable & strong I am. I’ve done it before so I can do it again! Except this time, I have all of the tools and support I desperately wanted 5 years ago. After being on this drug for over 12 years (5+ pills per day) it’s now time to tear the final addiction claws out for good! Thank you @alex.witters for flushing the remaining bottles of Vicodin & being there to hold my hand through some hard parts. This is what true friendship is. ♥️ Now rounding out one week fully sober and I’m starting to remember the kind of magic that happens when you keep choosing you! 

If anyone is struggling with addiction, please know it’s WORTH the work. It’s worth looking your darkness dead in the eyes & saying no more! 

Remember, addiction does NOT discriminate! It doesn’t care about race, class, age,etc. I climbed the corporate ladder & achieved societal accolades all while blacking out drunk nightly & high on pills throughout each day. Functional addict. Now that I’m back in recovery, I’m reminded that you are my people. I understand, I see, I know, & I feel, the dark path you’ve / we’ve had to endure. Please reach out if you’re having a hard day or a rough time getting through your initial stages (or all stages) of your recovery process. I love you, you got this & keep going! 

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