My heart is bursting with an overwhelming sense of joy and gratitude! It’s nearly impossible to fully express what this life transition means to me, but I’m going to give it my all because I believe it’s my responsibility to share this journey so others know it’s absolutely possible.
This was the week of the big move, and I am beyond ready for this next chapter. It feels as though my entire life has been leading up to this moment. Everything had to unfold exactly as it did so I could become strong enough, wise enough, grateful enough, and emotionally prepared enough to embrace this massive transition. Before I got sober, I wasn’t ready. Before I got honest with myself, I wasn’t ready. Before I chose myself, I wasn’t ready. Before I fully stepped into the entirety of who I am, I wasn’t ready. But over this past year, I’ve been fully armed and prepared. I kept saying, “I feel like I’m being trained for something,” and it’s clear now that it was all for this next phase of my life. I realize that if I had been blessed with these beautiful gifts any earlier, I wouldn’t have been able to respect or appreciate them as I do now.
I’m beyond grateful to cross the threshold of our new beautiful home, equipped with all the knowledge gained from every lesson, every hardship, every tear shed—whether in joy or grief—every authentic connection, and, most importantly, the profound understanding of who I truly am and what I’m capable of. So often, we give away our power without even realizing it. We seek outside validation, absorb fear from media-driven chaos, doom-scroll through social media, and listen to others’ opinions instead of trusting ourselves. We stay confined in the box society has built for us. But when you’re completely drained of energy and power, it becomes impossible to see any of this. You’ve exhausted your energetic system to the point where there’s not a drop left to check in with yourself. And that’s how they win—by stripping away your power and distracting you from the most beautiful gift you can give yourself and your children: the courage to say, “Fuck this. I’m doing life my way.” The moment I felt those chains break, the chains that bound me to every role I was “supposed” to play, was the moment I stepped into my own liberation. And it’s nothing short of magical.
I truly see ME now—all of me—and she’s fucking beautiful, overflowing with love for herself and the world around her. The first lesson I learned when I set my life on fire and walked away was this: Trust Yourself. Every difficult decision, big or small, brought me back to that simple truth. Each time I trusted myself, I felt a surge of strength, a sense of leveling up. This theme carried me for months until it became ingrained in my very being. Trusting yourself is such a basic concept, yet it’s profoundly transformative. A year ago, I wouldn’t have believed I was strong enough to buy my dream home on my own. It wasn’t even a possibility in my mind. But now, 11 months after leaving a 20-year toxic marriage, cutting ties with a very toxic mother, finding my soul tribe, discovering that true unconditional love exists, and stepping into my new home—I see that all of this was meant for me, even though I couldn’t see it at the time.
Now, I get to create the life I’ve always dreamed of for Lyla and myself. Grateful doesn’t even begin to capture these feelings, but here are a few words that do: #Brave, #Authentic, #ChoosingMyself, #Courageous, #Genuine, #UnconditionalLove, #Connection, #Warrior, #DoingTheWork, #Fearless, #InService, #Light, #Inspirational, #StudentForLife, and most of all, deeply #Spiritual (NOT Fucking Religious), #ConnectedToEnergy.
With all that said, I owe a special thank you to myself. You stood in the face of fear and said, “Give me your best shot.” I’m so fucking proud of your ability to walk out of the fire and return to bring water to those still in the flames. Continue to stand in awe of who you are. Keep shining your light so fucking bright that it blinds the naysayers and guides those who need your unconditional love. Remember who you are and what you came here to do. I love you. You’ve got this. Keep going.
❤ Always,
You